第一次计划生育工作

真正考验开始了，要下乡去办计划生育的普查工作，到双渠公社，最遥远的最艰苦的农村去，县委特别会议召开了，我被选中了。拿了县委发的计划生育登记本，换好零钱，粮票，在马路上挡过往的拖拉机！老区的司机很好，都会停下车，不问你到哪里去，只是默默的开车，就像我早早买了票一样！从保安到杏河，再等一个过路的车，过了许久，终于有一个手扶拖拉机来了，我爬上去，一路突突的声音，震耳欲聋！

陕北的山路崎岖蜿蜒，有一条路走着走着没路了！我只见到半山的红沙石上有几个小坑，那沙石好滑呀！一边是悬崖，一边是无路可走的山坡小坑！我望着那小坑，脸红了起来！我一定要过去！我下定决心，想起过河的方法，快走裂石慢走桥！必须得快！我快快的冲了过去！

我过去了，我走过去了无路的山坡，我回过头看了一眼那山坡，那悬崖，那小坑！我一辈子再也不会回到这条恐惧的小路的！

The

eal

test

begi

s.

I

wa

t

to

go

to

the

cou

t

yside

to

ca

y

out

the

ce

sus

of

family

pla

i

g.

I

wa

t

to

go

to

shua

gqu

commu

e,

the

most

emote

a

d

a

duous

cou

t

yside.

The

special

meeti

g

of

the

cou

ty

Pa

ty

committee

was

held,

a

d

I

was

selected.

Take

the

family

pla

i

g

egist

atio

book

issued

by

the

cou

ty

Pa

ty

committee,

cha

ge

the

cha

ge,

food

stamps

a

d

block

the

passi

g

t

acto

s

o

the

oad!

The

d

ive

s

i

the

old

a

ea

a

e

ve

y

good.

They

will

stop

a

d

get

off.

They

do

't

ask

whe

e

you

a

e.

They

just

d

ive

sile

tly,

just

like

I

bought

a

ticket

ea

ly!

F

om

the

secu

ity

gua

d

to

Xi

ghe,

a

d

the

wait

fo

a

passi

g

ca

.

Afte

a

lo

g

time,

fi

ally

a

walki

g

t

acto

came.

I

climbed

up,

all

the

way

the

e

was

a

sudde

sou

d,

deafe

i

g!

The

mou

tai

oad

i

No

the

Shaa

xi

is

ugged

a

d

wi

di

g.

The

e

is

a

oad

that

has

o

way

to

go!

I

ca

o

ly

see

a

few

**all

pits

o

the

ed

sa

dsto

e

i

the

middle

of

the

mou

tai

.

The

sa

dsto

e

is

so

slippe

y!

O

o

e

side

is

a

cliff,

o

the

othe

side

is

a

**all

pit

o

the

hillside

with

o

way

to

go!

I

looked

at

the

pit

a

d

blushed!

I

must

go!

I

made

up

my

mi

d

to

thi

k

of

the

way

to

c

oss

the

ive

.

Walk

o

the

c

acked

sto

e

b

idge!

It

has

to

be

fast!

I

ushed

quickly!

I

passed,

I

walked

past

the

impassable

hillside,

I

looked

back

at

the

hillside,

the

cliff,

the

pit!

I

will

eve

etu

to

this

path

of

fea

i

my

life!

多么像我的人生，我的前途是没

有路的！

我没了嗓子，不能唱戏，即使有了嗓子，可以唱戏，也因为时代的变迁，没了戏曲的大舞台。

我的前进的路是断了的山路！需要我有勇气，冲过那悬崖边的无路的小坑坑。要快，要快！

到了山村，妇女把红颜料放到锅里，染了裤头，表示没有怀孕。她们给我做世界上最难吃的糠窝窝头！我依然按照县委的指示，每次吃饭要交四辆粮票，三毛钱！

有一天，回公社的时间晚了，半夜，走在山区的路上，只有星星，山泉水的声音相伴，没了一丝恐惧，没了一点的现实感，仿佛在梦境里，只是无限无限的孤独！

How

like

my

life,

my

futu

e

is

o

way!

I

ca

't

si

g

without

a

voice.

Eve

if

I

have

a

voice,

I

ca

si

g.

Because

of

the

cha

ges

of

the

times,

I

do

't

have

a

big

stage

of

ope

a.

My

way

fo

wa

d

is

a

b

oke

mou

tai

oad!

It

takes

cou

age

fo

me

to

ush

th

ough

the

pathless

pit

o

the

edge

of

the

cliff.

Hu

y,

hu

y!

Whe

she

a

ived

i

the

village,

the

woma

put

the

ed

pigme

t

i

the

pot

a

d

dyed

he

t

ouse

s,

i

dicati

g

that

she

was

ot

p

eg

a

t.

They

make

me

the

wo

st

chaff

i

the

wo

ld!

I

still

acco

di

g

to

the

cou

ty

Pa

ty

committee's

i

st

uctio

,

each

time

eats

must

ha

d

i

fou

g

ai

tickets,

30

ce

ts!

O

e

day,

it

was

late

to

go

back

to

the

commu

e.

I

the

middle

of

the

ight,

o

the

way

to

the

mou

tai

,

the

e

we

e

o

ly

sta

s

a

d

the

sou

d

of

mou

tai

sp

i

g

a

d

wate

.

The

e

was

o

fea

,

o

se

se

of

eality,

as

if

i

a

d

eam,

it

was

just

i

fi

ite

lo

eli

ess!

回县的日子，坐了一辆东方红大型拖拉机，开心的心情被五月陕北的一场暴雨浇灭了，我躲在拖拉机的车底，雨像脸盆倒水一样，雨点大的像乒乓球！雨小点了，冒着雨站在车上，任凭雨打风吹！坐车的人都淋了个落汤鸡，从炮楼山下来，听见一个声音:"回去洗个澡，换件衣服，美美睡一觉!"我的泪水不觉就流了下来！这么简单的事我一个也做不到了！没有家，县城没有澡堂，洗澡是没办法了，只有一件衣服，还是师兄给的，换件衣服不可能了，今天要把剧团的房子推掉了，我已经被宣布离开剧团，到旦八乡文化站去工作了！我无地自容！我在副食店买了一瓶最便宜的葡萄酒，独自走向周河，拖着满身的雨水，带着就要离别剧团的哀愁！躺在土坡旁，喝着人生的苦酒，留下无尽的泪水！

无家可归，离别养我的剧团，告别县城，八毛钱的卡车路费，我背起我的铺盖卷，就像一只丧家犬一样，逃到乡下！

我去时，唯一买了一大堆书，乡下的窑洞，有五口石窑，我住在第三个。巨大的犹如悬崖一样的黑板，在旦八的十字路口，我要搭着梯子写黑板报。长廊用白纸糊着，毛笔字悬空写，一写20米！

O

the

day

of

etu

i

g

to

the

cou

ty,

I

took

a

la

ge

O

ie

tal

ed

t

acto

.

My

happy

mood

was

dest

oyed

by

a

ai

sto

m

i

No

the

Shaa

xi

i

May.

I

hid

u

de

the

t

acto

.

The

ai

was

like

a

washbasi

pou

i

g

wate

.

The

ai

was

like

a

pi

g-po

g

ball!

The

ai

is

light.

Sta

d

o

the

bus

i

the

ai

a

d

let

the

wi

d

blow!

All

the

passe

ge

s

got

d

e

ched

i

soup.

Comi

g

dow

f

om

the

tu

et

mou

tai

,

they

hea

d

a

voice:

"go

back

to

take

a

bath,

cha

ge

clothes,

have

a

good

sleep!"

my

tea

s

flowed

dow

u

co

sciously!

I

ca

't

do

such

a

simple

thi

g!

The

e

is

o

home.

The

e

is

o

bathhouse

i

the

cou

ty.

The

e

is

o

way

to

take

a

bath.

The

e

is

o

ly

o

e

d

ess.

It's

still

f

om

my

elde

ma

tial

b

othe

.

It's

impossible

to

cha

ge

a

d

ess.

Today

I'm

goi

g

to

push

off

the

house

of

the

t

oupe.

I've

bee

a

ou

ced

to

leave

the

t

oupe

a

d

go

to

wo

k

at

da

baxia

g

cultu

al

statio

!

I

ca

't

help

it!

I

bought

a

bottle

of

the

cheapest

wi

e

i

the

g

oce

y

sto

e,

walked

alo

e

to

the

Zhou

Rive

,

d

aggi

g

the

ai

all

ove

my

body,

with

the

sad

ess

of

leavi

g

the

t

oupe!

Lyi

g

beside

the

slope,

d

i

ki

g

the

bitte

wi

e

of

life,

leavi

g

e

dless

tea

s!

Homeless,

fa

ewell

to

my

t

oupe,

fa

ewell

to

the

cou

ty,

80

ce

ts

of

t

uck

fa

e,

I

ca

y

my

beddi

g

oll,

like

a

be

eaved

dog,

fled

to

the

cou

t

yside!

我将从这里起飞，飞往南方我的故乡！我不知用什么办法，只知道我一定可以做到！就像我那天写的诗句：

我要走了

去到太阳直射的地方，

去到人民勤劳的土地，

用笔书写梦想，

用梦想激励活着，

用活着表现坚强！

用坚强守望南方！

I

will

fly

f

om

he

e

to

my

hometow

i

the

south!

I

do

't

k

ow

what

to

do,

just

k

ow

I

ca

do

it!

Like

the

poem

I

w

ote

that

day:

I

am

af

aid

that

l

have

to

go

Go

whe

e

the

su

is

di

ect,

To

the

ha

d-wo

ki

g

la

d

of

the

people,

W

ite

d

eams

with

a

pe

,

Live

with

d

eams,

Live

to

be

st

o

g!

Watch

the

South

with

st

e

gth!